its scary how much i can forget, yet how easily He gently reminds me. thank you God! :)

i’ve spent (more like wasted) the past few days just moping around in absolute self centered misery.

i don’t know why i’ve been feeling like that lately but i thought…oooh, this one is going to last for awhile. i must be entering depression…

ironically…the thing that changed my whole mentality was last night.

i come home tired and just blah. blah blah blah. my mom comes and she’s super blah. like i’m-in-a-really-bad-mood blah and i distinctly remember…not wanting to just stay outta her way and leave her be. instead i found myself putting together dinner for the two of us and just think of simple gestures to encourage and make her happy. and it worked! she said the salad was so delicious and then she just shared about her day. i shared about my recent state of downess…and it was in that moment that we both remembered that God loves us and there is nothing to fear or be anxious of, nothing else that mattered more than being loved by Him. to just love and live in this freeing Truth. we spent the rest of the night watching csi and criminal mind like we usually do…but last night… God changed my heart. what a miracle (at least to me).

i shared w/ joe briefly this morning…and what he said still lingers in my head/heart…he pretty much said…all it took for you to get out of this funk was serving. all it took for me to stop looking at me was to serve and love someone else…simple yet profound. simply profound.

i spent the rest of the night listening to the audio book for “crazy love”. it was so encouraging. the creator of the universe…loves me unconditionally.

thank you God for moving in my heart ever so gently yet powerfully.

i am blessed.

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